Thu Jan 09 11:30:00 UTC 2025: **Widow of Stephen “tWitch” Boss Reveals Hidden Struggles in New Memoir**

LOS ANGELES – Allison Holker, widow of the late Stephen “tWitch” Boss, has revealed heartbreaking details about her husband’s struggles with addiction and hidden pain in a new memoir, “This Far: My Story of Love, Loss, and Embracing the Light.” The memoir, released February 4th, follows Holker’s discovery of a cache of drugs hidden in their home weeks after Boss’s death by suicide in December 2022.

Holker, in an exclusive interview with PEOPLE, describes finding the substances while preparing Boss’s funeral outfit, a moment she calls “triggering” and “alarming.” This discovery, coupled with reading his journals, unveiled a deeper layer of suffering that Boss had concealed, including past trauma and self-medication. While aware of Boss’s marijuana use, Holker was unaware of the extent of his struggles. Journal entries revealed he had been sexually abused as a child, a secret he hadn’t shared with his wife or close friends.

Despite feeling betrayed by the hidden secrets, Holker expresses empathy and understanding, recognizing Boss’s desire to shield his loved ones from his pain. She hopes sharing his story will encourage others struggling in silence to seek help. She also reveals that the morning of his death, Boss’ final words to their daughter Weslie were, “I wish I could be your Superman.”

Holker reflects on the dichotomy between Boss’s vibrant public persona, “tWitch,” and his more introverted private self, “Stephen.” She now believes the pressure to maintain this duality contributed to his struggles.

The memoir details Holker’s healing journey and her advocacy for mental health awareness. She encourages open conversations and understanding, emphasizing that even those who appear to have “a lot of light” can still grapple with significant darkness. Holker is partnering with organizations like the National Alliance of Mental Illness and Maple Counseling to promote mental health resources. The article ends with a reminder of the 988 Suicide and Crisis Lifeline and Crisis Text Line for those struggling.

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